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You should know who you are.......

..Thats if what you are currently doing hasn't turned you into something you are not!

There is someone on my freinds list,who I actually see as being a freind,even though we have yet to meet.
 Frankly her current behaviour towards someone close to her makes me wonder wether I should..
Yes ok it's her life,do with it as she may,only there are those out there who no longer have that choice,they have to think long and hard about how what they do effects those that need them at their best..as it goes their situation is such that they don't think,they do,as they have to..

Really,i suppose if you have only yourself,no responsibilities,no one who really needs you,be totally selfish and just do your own thing,fine carry on as you are...keep living the same life,with different but oh so the same characters,basically two dimensional types,who by saying they are not shallow in their beliefs,are..yeah good luck to you..honestly!

If not,well pull your head out of your ass and start veiwing those that have the balls to say 'no'to you from time to time,as the 'real'people in your life..

To repeat myself,this individual,i shall not do some 'fake'token act of removal from my freinds list..jeez,what will that acheive?,honestly?

In fact quite the opposite,I'll keep an eye out for them..

So knowing who you are,take care of yourself in what ever you do,when the circus has left town and you are sitting staring down at the kerb,those that do,will...reach down and help you back up......

All the best;



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May. 8th, 2008 10:31 am (UTC)
Terry, does this have anything to do with Andi telling me that I'm not welcome in her life if I occassionally smoke pot?

May. 9th, 2008 01:12 am (UTC)
..And I shall give you the reasons for my concern ok?!

Andi got herself into a bad situation with Shane,re:drugs..and don't think for a moment I am equating you with Shane ok?

Nonetheless,she now has more than valid reasons for wanting Hansel to have a more 'stable'life,ie:one with her free from the things that nearly cost her loosing him...I hope and pray you can see what I mean by this.

yep there is the argument "What the hell do you know about my life Terry,who gave you the right the to be judgemental?"..I am not being judgemental,I am just appraising facts as I see them...and as I wish you could too.

Hansel is a gift,and as with all gifts not one you should treat with a certain casualness..as he is your flesh and blood,he needs you in his life to be there for him,now I'll be honest with you here Star,I have two lovely nephews frankly the situation I am in at the moment is not one that will best place me to be there for them either..I am trying my best to rectify this as I know there are those who want me to be a functioning part of their lives too!,I gave up smoking weed,cut back on my drinking,now my thoughts are straighter,I can see a better stabler path back to those that I know care,as they have said 'NO'to me on more than several occasions..and you know what I am damn well glad they have,yeah I pulled my head out of my ass..I was using substances for far to long as a crutch,alcohol,weed,painkillers and 'shrooms..in my selfishness I didn't realise that my family is the real strength,and now once I regain mine,I am going to do all I can to repay that because I do know now in all realism,that we do owe something to others.

So again I am not being preachy,prescriptive or judgemental,merely sharing with you the wisdom it took me a mighty fall to find,we fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up,it's also nice not to push away the hands that will be there to help you either..

Take care Star,in what ever you do..and I really do mean that,and I also hope one day we can meet up and then when you hear the tone of my voice you'll hopefully understand more of what I write.

All the best

Terence Balfour ¬?xx
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